Never allow loneliness to drive you into the arms of someone you know you don't belong with

This weekend was the first one in about six weeks where I didn't have plans with other people. As much as I have enjoyed everything I've done with others over the last six weekends, I've been looking forward to a weekend with no agenda,to do some nice stuff at home like baking and reading and taking the time to catch up on the tons of washing I have piling up. I've been single for two years now and I'm one of those people who is generally okay on their own, but I did find myself noticing a little sweep of loneliness coming over me by Saturday evening. My first thought was that maybe I should be making sure that I always have plans on the weekend evenings, but as I showered I realised that I just wanted to run away from something that was making me uncomfortable, and really I still wanted to stay committed to being able to face up to things I don't like and ultimately allowing myself to grow from that. After making peace with my few moments of loneliness, it was kind of a surprise to me that I dreamed about being reunited with my ex boyfriend. In the dream we randomly met up again and ended up rekindling our relationship. The dream felt so real, that I woke up in a panic regretting the meeting with him, I didn't want to have to go through the awkwardness of trying to make a bad relationship work, I didn't want to have to be somebody I wasn't, and I didn't want to be used by somebody who didn't really care about me. It was such a relief when I realised that it was all a dream and I didn't have to do any of that stuff. The dream showed me how far I had come though and how much of my own happiness I am not prepared to sacrifice, just so I dont have to face up to things that are difficult or uncomfortable. Loneliness can be hard sometimes, but dont be so scared of it that you stay in bad relationships or hang out with people who don't value you, learn to accept and find your own way through those feelings and you will find that you attract the best people in life, because you don't have a need for anything other than that.